Who Am I && Why Am I Here ?

So Monday.....I was downtown in the class at Loyola. The day was going fairly decent I would say. All the way up until lunchtime, when my day came spiraling down. I was being annoyed at the class because I wanted to go home. There was ANOTHER person who was aggravating me OUTSIDE of the class [as in someone I was texting]. Yeah so anyway,....most of you know that I've been looking for a job. A REAL JOB. Most of you ALSO know that I currently...well I used to have a job ummm...working at my church [yeah...we'll say that.] So I decided to call one of the places that I applied to, during my lunchtime. I called AMC THEATERS FORD CITY. So when I called the lady is like THANKYOUFORCALLINGFORDCITYAMCTHEATERSHOWMAYIHELPYOU. So I'm like Hello, May I speak to the manager please ? ONEMOMENT. The manager Delores, gets on the phone and is like THISISDELORESMANAGEROFAMCFORDCITYWHATCANIHELPYOUWITH ? So I explained to her that I filled out the application && that I was calling to find out the status of it. She gave me THE most generic answer "THE MANAGER[refering to herself in third person] IS CURRENTLY REVIEWING ALL SUBMITED APPLICATION AND IF HE SLASH SHE [yes she pronounced the slash] IS INTERESTED, THEY'LL CALL YOU BACK ! *CLICK!!!*Needless to say I was pissed off....Especially by the fact that it seemed as though everyone but me was getting jobs left and right. So I was mad for the rest of the day. I decided that I wasn't allowing myself to talk to ANYBODY until I got a JOB. So anyway, on my way home [on the train]...I was thinking. I couldn't stop thinking about why WHY I had been put in this position. WHY was it ME that couldn't find a job. Well anyway....I was sitting there...and the lady a couple rows down, I saw, was reading a book. The title of the book was "WHO AM I & WHY AM I HERE ?" And that boook musta got me thinking for real !! I couldn't help but ask myself those same questions. Sooo annyway...fast foward.I get home & I decide to do something that I haven't done in a while. The issue with the job at the church, is that......basically I NEED TO BE IN CHURCH NOT AT CHURCH. I had to WORK DURING church and I didn't like that. I wanted to have another job by Saturday so I could quit on Sunday. So anyway...I was reading the Bible. And I swear to you...........IT ALL BECAME SO CLEAR. Proverbs 3.1-6....Lean NOT unto my own understanding. Matthew 6.33---Seek FIRST the kingdom....&& all things ELSE will be added unto thee....[REVALATION]....I DON'T NEED A JOB THAT'S GOING TO INTERFERE WITH CHURCH. I'M NOT GOING TO SAY IT LIKE I'M A SAINT, BUT I THINK THAT GOD GAVE ME THE JOB AND CAN GIVE ME ANOTHER ONE. [not even supposed to be WORKING on the Sabbath.]But...even though I had figured that part out....I still wondered....WHAT IS MY PURPOSE [not who am i ?] && WHY AM I HERE ?



So yesterday, which was Tuesday, I didn't go to class. I was sitting on the computer and I was SOOOOO freakin bored man. So I was on MySpace. I hadn't been on there for a while man....Don't you know how you go to look at ONE persons page on MySpace and end up on a lot of different peoples page ? Well, I ended up on this dudes page. I noticed that a lot of his friends were my friends. Even though I don't PERSONALLY know him, I recognized him as this dude Rob Cotton that people I know, know. So when I got to his page....this song came on. It was kinda hot. So I let it play...The first song was called LOVE. So when it got to the second song, I'm still hearing it. BUT NOW, IM LISTENING TO IT. Theres a difference between HEARING and LISTENING. But anyhow, this next song freakin blew my mind man.....I actually REPLAYED IT. Like real talk...so the lyrics was raw. The beat was raw. The verses was raw. EVERYTHING WAS HOT. I went to this next song that I had heard before by N-Crowd....so anyway. MAKING A LONG STORY SHORT. It was 6 songs on his page. By the time I got to the last one.....I had one thought in my mind: THIS DUDE IS A GENIUS....a] I don't say that about many people. b] His stuff got a message/story behind it. c] his beats are freakin OFF the chain. d] he does it ALL in the name of Our Savior [even if it's not about him]......so I was on Facebook at the same time. I was like I don't know this dude....so I shouldn't say nothing to him...I got off the computer...When I got back on, I was still addicted to that MySpace playlist !! I let it play like 3 or 4 more times. I decided to message him. I thought, dude needs to know how good he is. Since I don't know him, I don't know if anyone ever told him. I wasn't looking for nothing or wasn't tryna meet nobody new [oh well I DID want a CD..lol]. So anyway, I message him like dude yo stuff is real hot....its real and it's off the chain. He replied. I was talking to him......And he seemed to REALLY appreciate that.POINT OF THE STORY: I was able to help somebody yesterday and encourage them to keep on doin them. && for that....I'm proud of me. YALL NEED TO GO TO MYSPACE.....www.myspace.com/spudcotton AND LISTEN TO THIS MAN. HE'S A BEAST. REEEAL TALK.